Oh, hell! we can do better than that!

[ Saturday night's dinner came and went with no call from Big. my life was suddenly shit ... but my cabinets were looking fabulous.]

Who is it?

Me!

Surprise!

Yeah!

Wow! what's all this?

I'm painting.

I can see that.

Why didn't you call?

Why didn't you call? so, this is where you live! about time you invited me up?!

I didn't invite you!

I know. it's nice, very nice!

No, it's not. it's a mess. the floors need to be stripped and the curtains are ... i want to change a lot of it.

I don't know. i like it. i like it the way it is. what was that all about the other night?

That was me ... having a meltdown!

Ok. nice paint. egg shell?

Yes.

Did you know there's a couple humping outside of your window?

Really? oh, i never noticed.

[ All i could think was why aren't we having sex? is this normal? what's wrong? wjere are we going?]

Oh, hell. we can do better than that!

[ And then, he kissed me! odd how normal can sometimes feel so uncomfortable!?!]